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Saturday, January 21

Checkmate


I’ve been busy, yes. And I’ve admitted that I’ve been “walang kwenta” the past few weeks.


I guess I could, somehow, tell that I know how you are when you miss me. Out of the blue, you would invite me to go somewhere; to see if your spontaneity has fully rubbed–off on me. And you would be really persistent and will not take no for answer.

San ka na ba?

You asked, as if I haven’t already given you a ton of reasons why I can’t make it.

You’d get pissed.

I’d get pissed.

Then, there goes our EQ down the drain – You and your persistent calls and texts; me and your 20+ missed calls and unread messages on my phone.

I guess you know me too well. You know that if I can, I’d make ways just so I could spend time with you.

I’d be there at the meeting place before you do; you’d come in late, like the usual. Try as I may, I can’t make myself get mad at you. I’d blame it on that boyish charm and that sweet smile of yours.

And the peppermint chocolate might have appeased me a little.


Then, this happened…


You are physically with me, but I can’t feel you. Yes, you’d hold me with your cold hands, but your palms won’t get warm on my touch anymore.

I’d lay my head on your shoulder, you’d wrap your arm around my waist to hold me close; yet I could feel you pulling away.

Are you?

Are you pulling away?

“I’m not pulling away… I don’t know… I felt a sudden distance too. I don’t quite understand myself. I miss you like crazy, but I don’t know how to express it anymore. It’s like I just suddenly ran out of things to do.”

You said you felt weird and hurt.

You do?

Then, I’m telling you right now, it pains me more than it hurts you. The sharp pang is unbearable.

I’m in agony, the next few minutes that followed.

I took a cab on a ride home.

Doesn’t matter if the cabbie thinks I’m crazy.

I’m in tears.

I’m hurt, too.

But I miss you, badly.



I told you, I wouldn’t let the week pass without having to talk our issues through.

This time, I was the one who asked you to meet me; you obliged.

You promised you’d hold me, tight, in your arms.

I promised to shower you with kisses.



Were the promises kept?






Well, it was just you and me, alone...




at the 2nd floor of a coffee shop...




So, what's it going to be?






  

Your move? or mine?
 







17 comments:

Nimmy said...

i hope you're doing alright. huggggggs teh!

Nate said...

@Nimmy: sisterette!!! i'm fine.. emo-ness stuff lang 'to.. *hugs back*

pointlessparanoia said...

As always, the emo-ness is there. I hope you don't feel to much of it, though. It could always drive one crazy. (But it makes you write sad posts like this.)

Nate said...

@pointlessparanoia: lil bro!! *hugs* yah.. it could really drive someone nuts.. oh well, i'm ok naman.. :)

aboutambot said...

buti naman ok ka pala. akala ko ano na e...

Nate said...

@aboutambot: oh hey there! yah.. ok nman ako.. naks, ikaw na ang nag-alala for me.. :)

eon said...

Relationships go through these episodes. It isnt usually a cause for alarm. It might just be saying you need alone times as much together times too. Mytwo cents.

Guyrony said...

Touch move, Nate?

Désolé Boy said...

San bang coffee shop yan? Sa Morato? Yun kasi unang pumasok sa isip ko pagkasabi mo na may 2nd floor.

Nate said...

@eon: hmm.. you actually have a point there..

@G: hehehe.. yah, i guess.. :)

@DB: lil bro!! hehehe.. alam mo yan.. :)

Mugen said...

Trust me it happens.

The question is, how do u respond during these lull times. =)

I agree with Eon. He should know, he's been in a relationship longer than most of us here in the blog. :)

Hoobert the Awesome said...

I can totally relate. :( Stuffs like these are pretty normal in a relationship. We have our ups and our lows. Just talk it out and you'll get through. :)

Nate said...

@Mugen: hi kuya joms! point taken! :)

@Hoobert: thanks for dropping by and leaving a comment! and yes, your advice is noted. :)

Leomer Apolonio said...

Natey, don't analyze things much. Think of the long-term. :)

Nate said...

@leo: hey there.. it's not really about analyzing too much, leo.. it's gut feel.. and this time around, i'm right..

i don't think there's going to be any long term.. :'(

Ms. Chuniverse said...

Awww.... as long as there is love, never give up.


*hugs*

Nate said...

@HRH Queen Chuni: thanks madam.. *hugs back* :'(

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